Starting To See Light Again…

lightsIn the same week, I had a huge attitude adjustment….

I had a huge pile of awesome land on my lap.

Although I wasn’t outright upset or angry, it was hard knowing that I had

no.1: No Job… or prospects for anything turning up.

no.2: No one available to help my with setting up counselor or headaches, or health in general ( A WHOLE other topic)


Without any force, or huge extension of major effort or struggle it was as if a gift given came to me.

Started Friday, and interview and a simple clothing store that offered me a part-time position with minimum wages, but as a safe, simple job. YAY!

Then Friday afternoon, had a specialist phone about setting up a counselor, and talked with me for over an HOUR, about life, advice, and consolation that things will get better.

Never had I ever had such a great talk with a professional, of any sorts, that genuinely wanted to help. Felt so relieved and enjoyed the entire experience.

Ahhhhh felt hope.

Then, the biggest surprise of them all!

I was approached by the owner of the gym I regularly attend, and he asked little bit about why I come to the gym.

Of course I blabbed about how much it changed my life and how it’s great thing everyone should do… etc etc etc.

Anyone with Passion about wellness would understand.

He smiled and said, “I thought so..”

He then asked me what I’ve been up to, and if I had a job.

I told him about my current situation, how I came back to my hometown…

He said, “Would you ever consider training?”

A huge grin crossed my face and he knew my answer.

He then said, ” Well, what would you think about coming in this week and I’ll show you around, I have papers you can fill out and we can start as soon as you want. You can take this as far as you want, and the staff here will certify you and help you build a clientele, all the while you can help out and get paid to run the gym.”

Mouth dropped to my feet, smile in my eyes and instant thought, “Impossible, impossible… so great.”

That was my no.3

My No.4 was the selling of my old winter tires to get money to buy groceries and have gas money to do errands in town and for Christmas.

Sometimes, it’s almost as if you need an attitude adjustment, before you can move on to better things so that you appreciate them more, and will have way more jeart into them.

Not for selfish desires but a knowing that it was a gift you will not forget.

I do feel I am finally seeing some light again.

Until this point it was just a knowing that there would be light, and I couldn’t lay down in darkness waiting for it to come to me, I had to keep pushing and not give up.


This is the beginning,

i am just seeing a glimpse of this,

and it’s been a short time already




‘Tis The Season Folks

Today I was thinking… OH SNAP, Christmas is just a few days away! Really? It has kind of creeped up this year. And let me tell you, it’s weird.

Probably cause it’s the first year I will not be with my family. I’ve been trying to come up with things to do to make Christmas special, and I kind of suck at it!! But for me, it has a lot to do with the sounds, smells, and overall CHILLness about it.

SO this is a little bit of what I will make sure I have and do!

1) Advent Calandars (thanks mom….. And a little bit’o chocolate a day, can’t go wrong!)

2) Christmas Lights, inside da house. Just love ’em. The white ones that is. The color ones, they’re cool too

3) Mandarine Oranges. Yup. They’re awesome. And who doesn’t think of Christmas as they peel back that cutesy little orange?

4) Scented Candles like pine, cinnamon, spiced pumpkin and what not. Mmmmmmm the SMELLLL of Christmas (if you are too lazy like me to bake… and get fat off the baking…)

5) Chocolate Oranges (To gain weight off something…) And to hit people over the head with to crack!!! sO MUCH fun.

6) Gingerbread house. The house that looks so good to eat, but tastes like nasty things. PS: make sure you get the pre-made gingerbread, cause the homemade stuff is wayyyyy to complicated

7) Christmas Music!! Duh. Something like this mix

Other than that, make sure you send out cards to the people you care about, and want to make sure you say what you wanted to say all year, but didn’t

And if I had it my way, I’d be able to see all my family and friends, and catch up, and sip on eggnog and hit everyone on the head with a chocolate orange. Then stay up all night, making snow angels and mutant snowmen.

Well… can’t have everything.

SO Merry Christmas ya’ll!