Starting To See Light Again…


lightsIn the same week, I had a huge attitude adjustment….

I had a huge pile of awesome land on my lap.

Although I wasn’t outright upset or angry, it was hard knowing that I had

no.1: No Job… or prospects for anything turning up.

no.2: No one available to help my with setting up counselor or headaches, or health in general ( A WHOLE other topic)

Then BLAMO

Without any force, or huge extension of major effort or struggle it was as if a gift given came to me.

Started Friday, and interview and a simple clothing store that offered me a part-time position with minimum wages, but as a safe, simple job. YAY!

Then Friday afternoon, had a specialist phone about setting up a counselor, and talked with me for over an HOUR, about life, advice, and consolation that things will get better.

Never had I ever had such a great talk with a professional, of any sorts, that genuinely wanted to help. Felt so relieved and enjoyed the entire experience.

Ahhhhh felt hope.

Then, the biggest surprise of them all!

I was approached by the owner of the gym I regularly attend, and he asked little bit about why I come to the gym.

Of course I blabbed about how much it changed my life and how it’s great thing everyone should do… etc etc etc.

Anyone with Passion about wellness would understand.

He smiled and said, “I thought so..”

He then asked me what I’ve been up to, and if I had a job.

I told him about my current situation, how I came back to my hometown…

He said, “Would you ever consider training?”

A huge grin crossed my face and he knew my answer.

He then said, ” Well, what would you think about coming in this week and I’ll show you around, I have papers you can fill out and we can start as soon as you want. You can take this as far as you want, and the staff here will certify you and help you build a clientele, all the while you can help out and get paid to run the gym.”

Mouth dropped to my feet, smile in my eyes and instant thought, “Impossible, impossible… so great.”

That was my no.3

My No.4 was the selling of my old winter tires to get money to buy groceries and have gas money to do errands in town and for Christmas.

Sometimes, it’s almost as if you need an attitude adjustment, before you can move on to better things so that you appreciate them more, and will have way more jeart into them.

Not for selfish desires but a knowing that it was a gift you will not forget.

I do feel I am finally seeing some light again.

Until this point it was just a knowing that there would be light, and I couldn’t lay down in darkness waiting for it to come to me, I had to keep pushing and not give up.

THE BEST PART!!!

This is the beginning,

i am just seeing a glimpse of this,

and it’s been a short time already

 

 

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I’ve Learned…


I’ve learned…

that doing the right thing is not always the easy thing

waiting for results, is TIME… Doesn’t happen over night

a hug is to pain, and a band-aid is to a cut

good intentions mean that another person failed to understand or see the reason behind your actions

that it’s not a matter of IF but WHEN you hurt someone you love

to know great pain, is to know great love

to never presume the good OR bad

true friends want the best for you, not for themselves

there’s a fine line between being generous and being taken advantage of

It’s not about winning, it’s about saying you tried

letting go is not as bad as holding onto something that shouldn’t be

when you think you are in control of life… is when life’s in control of you

moderation,  is one of the most important, single word to live by

that happiness is not based on any part of a materialistic world

a genuine smile is the best thing you can wear

that the admittance of struggles is a sign of strength

the more I learn, the less intelligent I feel

 

– To Be Continued…

 

“Let Her Go”


Let Her Go

“Let Her Go”

Well you only need the light when it’s burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you’ve been high when you’re feeling low
Only hate the road when you’re missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go

Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hoping one day you’ll make a dream last
But dreams come slow and they go so fast
You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you’ll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies

But you only need the light when it’s burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you’ve been high when you’re feeling low
Only hate the road when you’re missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go

Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
‘Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast
Well you see her when you fall asleep
But never to touch and never to keep
‘Cause you loved her too much and you dive too deep

Well you only need the light when it’s burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you’ve been high when you’re feeling low
Only hate the road when you’re missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go
Oh oh oh no
And you let her go
Oh oh oh no
Well you let her go

‘Cause you only need the light when it’s burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you’ve been high when you’re feeling low
Only hate the road when you’re missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go

‘Cause you only need the light when it’s burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you’ve been high when you’re feeling low
Only hate the road when you’re missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go

A Recipe


This is my recipe to maintain a sound body, and sound mind

Most of the time… 🙂

It is a lot of things, and sometimes I don’t need to do it all,

but if I want to keep my mind and body in the right place, well I thought I would share this.

First of all, everything in somewhat moderation, but that is different for everyone I suppose.

I am avoid junk/processed food say..85% of the time

The other 15% is called PMS fools. Deal with it

Eat what I would say a balanced diet, avoiding gluten, sugars, simple sugars and having plently of EGGS and veggies

Limit coffee to a cup a day, and try only 5 days a week

Supplements?

Lots, but the main ones are OMEGA 3, FULL spectrum amino acids, Vitamin D, MCT Oil, and digestive enzyme.

No big deal

I get my 7-10 hours of sleep.

Take Melatonin to ensure I sleep like a boss

I inject B12 in my leg for stress, and increase in energy once a week

( I do not advise this unless you’ve seeked a medical professional)

EXCERSIZE! Change it up, absolutely once a week no questions asked, BUT

usually 4-5 times a week workout

Music, yes! music, lots of it

And I like the stuff no one else listens to…. so not the radio is what I’m saying, BUT sometimes I like some mainstream tunes too.

this gets me in the ZONE!

Photog time.

Photography is that hobby that gets me out of the house and brings out my creative side.

Well this is  the bulk of it. There are many little things I do, but I must say one thing, it’s not that I”m crazy, it’s just a lifestyle I do to live a full and enjoyable life

YES YES, I eat chocolate, and laze around and watch tv sometimes,but that is not my lifestyle

Get it?